What do you really want?

Allheart

photo: CC // seyed mostafa zamani

 

Anyone who knows me knows that I hate standing still in a shallow little puddle of

indecision.

So a recent conversation with a friend got me thinking about something I read once.

Below are a few simple sentences for any situation where mind keeps heart from taking chances that move us forward.

 

You have to ask yourself if you really want what you say you want.

If you don't, stop telling yourself that you do.

If you do, stop telling yourself that it's impossible.

~j.cainer

random shuffle: romeo & juliet

Heartbykk

photo: CC // kk+


Romeo & Juliet

A lovestruck Romeo, sings the streets of serenade
Laying everybody low with a love song that he made
Find a streetlight, steps out of the shade
Says something like, "You and me, babe, how about it?"

Juliet says, "Hey, it's Romeo, you nearly gave me a heart attack"
He's underneath the window, she's singing
Hey, la, my boyfriend's back"
You shouldn't come around here, singing up at people like that
Anyway what you gonna do about it?

Juliet, the dice was loaded from the start
And I bet and you exploded in my heart
And I forget, I forget the movie song
When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

Come up on different streets, they both were streets of shame
Both dirty, both mean, yes and the dream was just the same
And I dream your dream for you and now your dream is real
How can you look at me, as if I was just another one of your deals?

you can fall for chains of silver, you can fall for chains of gold
You can fall for pretty strangers and the promises they hold
You promised me everything, you promised me thick and thin
Now you just say, "Oh, Romeo, yeah, you know
I used to have a scene with him"

Juliet, when we made love, you used to cry
I said, "I love you like the stars above, "I love you till I die"
And there's a place for us, you know the movie song
When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

I can't do the talk like the talk on the TV
And I can't do a love song like the way it's meant to be
I can't do everything but I'd do anything for you
I Can't do anything except be in love with you

And all I do is miss you and the way we used to be
All I do is keep the beat, the bad company
And all I do is kiss you, through the bars of a rhyme
Juliet, I'd do the stars with you any time

Juliet, when we made love, you used to cry
I said, "I love you like the stars above, I'll love you till I die"
And there's a place for us, you know the movie song
When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

A lovestruck Romeo, he sings the streets of serenade
Laying everybody low with a love song that he made
Find a convenient streetlight, steps out of the shade
He says something like, "You and me, babe, how about it?"

~ Dire Straits


...love this song. actually prefer the Indigo Girls version below.

Stained from the inside.

Fiercekitty

i love this shot of Danielle

Heygeek

and here's a cute one of her feet.

...both taken by the seriously awesome friend, cyberpunk, photographer kris krug.

photos: CC // kk+

random shuffle: somewhere i belong

...after the warm up, this is the song i've been kicking off my runs with. a bit high octane. like the equivelant of screaming into your pillow in order to let out a vent, only you're pounding the pavement instead.

Whitelines

photo: CC // Daniel S. Photography


Somewhere I Belong  ~Linkin Park

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck,hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal
I wanna feel, what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain 'til it's gone)
I wanna heal
I wanna feel, like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere, only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify the way everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, the fault is my own

I wanna heal
I wanna feel, what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain 'til it's gone)
I wanna heal
I wanna feel, like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself today

I wanna heal
I wanna feel, what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain 'til it's gone)
I wanna heal
I wanna feel, like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I wanna heal
I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal
I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong...

Aric With An A.

Aricwithana
Everyone has a friend with a wandering soul.

And if they don't. They should all just live vicariously through Aric.

Awesome voice. A way with words and an eye for telling stories through his pictures.

Oh and he never stays in one  place for very long. Ever.

So I met Aric two years ago on one of my visits back to Shanghai. He was in the process of creatively getting himself kicked out of China with a show on Current TV called Shanghai Diaries. We've been good friends ever since.

The past few years I feel like I've lived my life by walking in a vague direction of where my heart or gut has told me to go and I've learned to trust that i'll always end up where I need to be.

I thank and blame that in part to Aric's influence.

 

The below video is a few minutes of pure nostalgia for Leah and I but go ahead and feel free to watch along. I'm pretty sure he got kicked out of China the week after this. Buy him a beer and he'll tell you the story one day. :)

Update: Leah reminded me that this series won Aric the Most Prolific Vlogger award at Current in 2008.

 

ambivalence.

Fireice
photo: CC // cayusa

random shuffle: motorcycle drive by

...been getting some great suggestions for my playlist to push me past the little plateaus of my runs. going to start sharing some particularly cool discoveries. love the lyrics on this one.

Theroad
photo: CC // jesuscm


Motorcycle Drive By ~ Third Eye Blind
 

Summer time and the wind is blowing outside
in lower Chelsea
And I don't know what I'm doing in this city
The sun is always in my eyes
It crashes through the windows
And I'm sleeping on the couch
When I came to visit you
That's when I knew
That I could never have you
I knew that before you did
Still I'm the one who's stupid
And there's this burning
Like there's always been
I've never been so alone
And I've
Never been so alive
Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by
The cigarette ash flies in your eyes and you don't mind
you smile
And say the world it doesn't fit with you
I don't believe you
You're so serene
Careening through the universe
Your axis on a tilt
You're guiltless and free
I hope you take a piece of me with you

And there's things I'd like to do
That you don't believe in
I would like to build something
But you'll never see it happen
And there's this burning
Like there's always been
I've never been so alone
And I've
I've never been so alive

And there's this burning
There is this burning
(yeaa)

Where's the soul I want to know
New York City is evil
The surface is everything
But I could never do that
Someone would see through that
And this is the last time
We'll be friends again
And I'll get over you
And you'll wonder who I am
And there's this burning,
Just like there's always been
I've never been so alone, alone
And I've, and I've
I've never been so alive

So alive

I go home to the coast it starts to rain I paddle out on the water
Alone
Taste the salt and taste the pain
I'm not thinking of you again
Summer dies and swells rise
The sun goes down in my eyes
See this rolling wave
Darkly coming
To take me
Home

And I never been so alone
And I've never been so alive

 

Me & My Shoes

Shoelust

So I get this random tweet from my boy Paul. Usually I don't indulge in memes. But this involves shoes. I make exceptions for shoes. So here I am playing along with something his friend Lance started here. So this is me and my shoe. It was lust at first sight.


UPDATE: Paul created a Tumblr site for Me & My Shoes. You should add yours.

THE ME & MY SHOES MANIFESTO (by Lance)

THE RULES OF ENGAGEMENT
The rules for this little social media extravaganza is that when you post your photo you...

    1. Post a photo of your and your shoes.

    2. Title it "Me & My Shoes"

    3. Share this note in a tweet with one or more friends who are wildly excited about shoes

    4. Use #meandmyshoes on Twitter to be featured on the Tumblr site. 

      YOUR TURN!

      My random way of saying 3 years worth of thank yous to a friend today. I hope it embarrasses him. // cc: @shaunrein

      Genx
      photo: CC // Leo Reynolds


      My friend Shaun Rein wrote an op/ed today in Forbes called "The Great Recession Saved My Generation" reflecting on Generation X type stuff. I think it's worth a read and retweet. Mostly known for his talks and opinions on China and consumer market trends, I must admit I look forward to the ones where he gets out of China mode and shares his thoughts on stuff like this:

      As I neared 30, I realized that many of my classmates were still living off their parents, or were crammed into little boxes with four or five roommates while slaving into the wee hours at firms like Goldman Sachs and Google. They had all gone to the right prep schools and the right colleges and had gotten into the right analyst programs at the white shoe banks, but they still didn't seem to be living up to their own or their parents' expectations. The vast majority of them were laid off at least once in the era of the dot-com bust, and several more than once. But still we didn't have a shared identity. The dot-com blowup only affected the more affluent swaths of America, and the hedge fund boom of the 2000s certainly didn't touch America's heartland.

      Anyways, reading that made me want to write a bit about him today. See, I met Shaun back in 2007 when I was host and producer of a podcast for Entrepreneur Magazine called The China Business Show. I interviewed him for his China insight and we quickly became friends because he fit in my subconscious strategy of surrounding myself with people who make me look smart by association. He's a really sharp guy. And he knows it too as I sometimes think he gets some perverse joy out of reading comments from trolls trying to knock down his ego. But I digress.

      Over the past several years, he's developed this talent for giving me advice on all sorts of stuff in my life that I always HATE hearing at the time. Even if I'm not asking for his opinion, he'll offer it. My business. My divorce. Raising my son alone. I think he's even thrown in a bit of dating advice that I never asked him for -- err, maybe that's why i'm still single. But that's Shaun for you. Yes. I said I HATE his advice. Not because I don't need it, mostly in part because it usually results in me going back to him 6 months later on one of my visits to Shanghai and telling him over coffee that he was right. I HATE feeding egos, but I'll always give credit where credit is due.

      So yea Shuan. I know. You told me so. This blog post is my way of saying thank you.

      Just don't let it get to your head.

      :)

      "As long as you don't stop climbing, the stairs won't end..." ~ Franz Kafka (h/t @kk)

      Kkquote

      photo: CC // kk+

      ...was going through kk's pics today from the GOAP Asia II trip and came across this timely quote. love it.